| and once again its been a while.... |
[Oct. 10th, 2005|11:41 pm] |
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| | Howie Day- Collide | ] |
So, things always change within 3 months, wait it would be 2, of a persons life. But, my life never fails to surprise me with many interesting twists and turns. First off, the summer was wonderful, I had so a great time with all of my friends, I missed them all so so much. It was the hardest thing ever to leave, but I had so much waiting for me in Massachusetts, it would have been foolish for me to stay and throw it all away. So one of the main reasons why I came back was because of the newspaper, I really like to write, and I do it mainly in hopes of influencing the way people view life, or just little things even. Not sure if I actually do that, but I write in hopes to. We so far have done 3 issues of the paper, mainly I am satisfied with them all, each issue I feel more comfortable with my place and knowing what I am capable of. Its October now, which i cant believe, lately if anyones noticed its been pretty rainy, sort of a sad feeling, but refreshing at the same time, I absolutely love the rain! Except for when it makes the bottom of my pants wet! haha I could care less about what it does to my hair ive given up on that battle once and for all. I turned 18, that was a prettty big thing! and I have to say I am still pretty excited about it. My love life is still non existent, ofcourse there is a prospect just like there always is, and I really actually like him, he's smart, and funny, i absolutely love his sense of humor, but I have a feeling just like always I messed it up already :::sadness:: but whats meant to happen always does.
what ive been listening to lately..
Lifehouse
You And Me
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of
You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive |
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[Jul. 19th, 2005|03:06 am] |
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| |  stressed | ] |
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| | vindicated- dashboard confessional | ] |
My life feels like its completely crazy right now. I don’t know where I am going to college in the fall, what is happening with my family, and I just wish that I didn’t have time to worry…… Maybe going away to college would be the best thing for me to do, living in a dorm I would have to worry about any parents or family making me stressed out with the problems … and I could hopefully concentrate on school more than I am able to right now ….. UGH this is soooo frustrating … I think that on Wednesday I will take a trip to SJSU, to check out the place, maybe if I like it I’ll just go for it completely….what the hell is going on in my life , that’s what I want to know, why cant anything just be simple, non complicated…….. Erhhness |
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[Jul. 9th, 2005|01:01 am] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | GIGGLES FROM FREINDS | ] |
Today, Cynthia, Marissa, Sara, and I took a trip to SAC. I then realized the point of living after our interesting trip to the Psychic who read our palms. We sort of stumbled across this place,Cynthia went first, after we had deicded that maybe some of the things the psychic said were actually valid we went back for a second try, avec Marissa, hers was quite interesting also. Then, it was my turn after we found Travis in the tunnel. The Pyschic first made a mistake by telling me that I was very good at numbers and mathematics ( for those who dont know, math is the worst subject ever for me ! i suck at numbers ) anyways, so then she told me that a boy that i have just recently become acquainted with would be a love interest in the next couple months. ( YAY : all my freinds know what i'm talking about LOL). Then she told me that i would have a successful career in JOURNALISM ! yay also lol that was cool . Apparently i will have 1 broken engagement, and 1 marriage with 3 children. It seemed weird. But, this whole entire day, made me realize that life is to live. You would not live life if you knew what would happen next, this is why we live, to see what will happen next, not to know! .........FRIENDS ROCK MY SOCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Jul. 6th, 2005|12:24 am] |
Us girls waiting for the fireworks |
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| 4th of July craziness!!!! |
[Jul. 5th, 2005|02:14 pm] |
Last night was soooo much fun!! Where to start lets see, first Cynthia, Marissa and I, went to Chevy's for some mexican food; Marissa debates the virginity of her Strawberry Daquri. Then we went to the car wash, picked up Derrick, and then went to the fireworks ... :: filled with sound effects from the girls:: danced in the target parking lot while waiting for the line to move( for about an hour, i think we had some people starigna at us) .... went to jaimies house, went to the hot tub, met up with Lucas and his new freind Caleb, went to Marissas house again, went to Denny's it was about 2:30 at the time, ate lots of food, went back to Marissas and slept ........ CRAZY!!!!
Pictures coming soon ......... |
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[May. 9th, 2005|09:56 pm] |
I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
Half time goes by
Suddenly you’re wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...
I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you’re on your way
Every day's a new day...
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live |
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| you can't just leave it blank ! |
[Apr. 17th, 2005|11:06 pm] |
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| | Anticipation - Excitement | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Mraz---- The Remedy | ] |
If I looked like you, I’d walk around naked... all the time .... haha don’t ask ( right Tory).... So this weekend has been pretty good , I had no work yesterday, amazingly! So I had decided to take a trip to the library and walked out with about 5 books ( note: I realize you cant exactly estimate ) but it was fun, and then I watched this movie …. Not so eventful my life I know…..And today I worked for a little while ..I feel like I could be missing something in my life but cant figure out what, no school tomorrow so that should be cool but now I have to work instead ……. Someone called in etc. they ask and I cant say no oh well ! I do have to say that I am quite afraid of not waking up on time to be @ work by 8 tomorrow.
I Love Y’all
Jess |
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| My full day ..... |
[Apr. 13th, 2005|11:16 pm] |
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| |  calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | howie day- she says | ] |
Today was rediculously full for me. I had school from 10-3 then i had to cover a senate meeting till 5, then work 5:30 to 10 ..... a little tiring but its ok ... i had two articles in the paper this time around ... very exciting for me ... just the little things make me happy lol ... n thats pretty much it tomorrow i get to rest so im pretty happy .... i think my hororscope has so been off lol anyways ... i'll leave u with this
Letting You Go
I feel you push me away
the wind against my shoulders confirming the steps I needed to make
I felt the breeze in my hair
Towards him it flew in the direction of my heart
As I walked away I felt my soul fall apart
I saw myself letting you go
Feeling the wind against my shoulders reminding me of the steps I had just made
I stopped the breeze from getting to my hair
Stopping it from flowing in the direction where I had left my heart
I saw myseIf
I had lost my love
.... tell me what ya think
Jess |
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| dont worry nothing good .... |
[Apr. 13th, 2005|11:15 pm] |
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| |  confused | ] |
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| | damien rice- the blowers daughter | ] |
I suck at dropping hints ....we should hang out tomorrow lol ... there ....
email me if u wanna .... if u get that its to u then cool if not ... then its not meant ... ( wow that sounds emo or something lol) |
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| get UP N DANCE ?!?!?!?! |
[Apr. 11th, 2005|11:12 pm] |
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| | accomplished | ] |
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| | she says- howie day | ] |
I wanna go dance so bad!!! Sara where are you when i need u ? so today was fairly interesting ... i had school, then work .... n now i am home .... for some reason i just had the most random flashback of a gloria estefan concert > wow dont ask ~~ anyways im in a weird mood ... sorta good i guess , i got this letter from a high up manager @ pier 1 because i got sales assoc of the month which totally made me feel like all my work paid off ... i love working there but its tough sometimes ... especially when i cant say no to people so i end up bending over backwards ... but hey i dont mind i guess :) |
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[Apr. 9th, 2005|11:28 pm] |
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| |  loved | ] |
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| | colorblind | ] |
What is it like to know everything that you want in life? To have stability? I've come to think that life is a struggle to maintain stability however do we ever acheive this in every aspect of our life in one moment? I wish just once we could all feel that way even for a second, it would keep us all working harder, almost like a taste of what we could have if we just took the next step ...... i think its about time i sleep now .. gotta busy day tomorrow! I had a busy day but it will all pay off on Wednesday when i get to read my articles in the paper ....
*~*Sweetdreams*~*
jessica |
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| Long Time no write... i heart U |
[Apr. 8th, 2005|02:04 pm] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
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| | Chariot- Gavin Degraw | ] |
I am so sorry for all those avid livejournal followers, as I have not done my livejournal justice in a couple weeks ! Today was quite busy so far, I had a geology test and then I went to cover the International Fest at school, basically free foreign food which was totally awesome!! and i've just been doing alot of thinking lately, I think I have a thing for this guy .... but it's probably all a bad idea plus i can't read him like I can with most people so I have no clue what he is thinking? Maybe i should just not worry ? He seems like an awesome person I wish he would just read this and know it was about him ! But, maybe I dont this could totally backlash on me, who knows, i hate getting my feelings hurt ::::: shrugs ::::: On the best side it is completely BEAUTIFUL outside i love it !!! i just want to go lay in the grass or something but my neighbors may think im weird ~sunshine~
*~*sweet is the sight of the room
window open by candle light
cold winter on the shore*~*
you will know for sure that i should be your girl
how i wish u only knew what i feel inside for you
jess |
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[Jan. 31st, 2005|11:49 pm] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
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| | hes everything you want - vertical horizon | ] |
just got home from work ugh they asked me to work at the last minute ... pain in the butt ... anyways ya so im just sorta sitting here like always at night listening to the always great savage garden cause thats just what im in the mood for ,,, questioning still what is really going on in a certain persons head ... i mean i totally understand what they are saying unfortunately that cannot help or stop how i feel. For some reason i thought that telling him how i felt would help but it didnt i guess it actually made me regret it ... why does he have to be so realistic haha look what im saying i mean ya its far but ... haha he knows what he is saying i know he is because i absolutely know that mostly everything out of his mouth hah or fingers i should say is intelligent ( yes i really am talking about a guy) and thats the crappy part the one guy that is out of my reach( literally ) im sure it could work out if it wanted to ... oh well .... sucks for me i guess i should just think to myself if it wanted to work out it would ... or is that pessimistic ... who knows i could always just go watch some Al Jazeera that'll cure me and my last comments of the night ... if you want big rewards you have to take big risks ... sometimes you just gotta trust instinct even if its not your own |
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| staring at james dean is a great way to pass time |
[Jan. 27th, 2005|10:56 pm] |
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| |  bouncy | ] |
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| | sunrise | ] |
thats exactly what im doin ... if only life were as simple as that ... so i have now come to a dillemma either i take the internship at the television studio or i do the play.. which totally sucks i mean how am i supposed to choose .... |
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[Jan. 24th, 2005|11:42 pm] |
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| | jesse mccartiney ( yes sara i know im a pop whore) | ] |
i feel funny not writing lately ... but theres not too much to say school was supposed to start today but got cancelled due to the weather .. which meant i got to go ice skating today !? lol and now i have a 4 foot long bruise eh its not that bad ... fish is dying ::sadness:: but ill buy a new one so that my other fish isnt lonely ... once again falling for someone whom i have no place to be falling for but ill have to live it could be worse i guess i could be admiring from afar lol wow what a depressing entry well on the brighter side im going to audition for arms and the man ... who knows it should be interesting .. and now marissa and cynthia got me wanting to look for prom dresses woohoo ( not really) christians need to stop jumping all over crap just because there tired of not being in the public eye .... yeah enough said just read my editorial on my webpage n in the paper .... byebyes |
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| snowy then rainy day |
[Dec. 7th, 2004|02:20 pm] |
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| | confused | ] |
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| | blower's daughter-- damien rice | ] |
i cant take my mind off of you ..... something i am struggling to do even though i am saving myself from being hurt..... oh well life goes on? ya im just sort of chillen being stupid because i didnt go to class this morning even though i should have gone because now i might be dropped from those two classes n i really cant afford that right now i just wanted to get my associates degree n transfer so that i would have somewhat of a foundation i want school to be four years n thats it lol ( another part of me just wishing my life away i think im going to begin to live just a little more in the moment experience things first hand instead of wishing it was all over ... espeically with work yup yup i have work tonight which should be a bit of a bore but i will live i have to write my outline for my research paper before i go because i wont have time to do it tonight..... the snow just makes me wanna hibernate !!! lol well looks like i might be moving to cali even more now ... kinda scary we'll see |
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| surreal? |
[Nov. 30th, 2004|02:59 am] |
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| | confused | ] |
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| | what the hell jessica!!!?!?!?!?! | ] |
right now im sooo confused i got to the airport checked my bag went through security got a ticket and just as i was about to board the flight i told them that i couldnt go, so here i am walking back to my dad who is waiting to make sure that i got on the flight and i had to tell him well technically i did but i wouldnt get on ... n to tell u the truth i dont know the full reason why i mean i know im confused with alot of crap just didnt know it would stop me ..... |
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| in cali |
[Nov. 23rd, 2004|03:48 am] |
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| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | colorblind. . . . | ] |
it has been a very eventful week sometimes good sometimes bad ..... tuesday night lets see when i got here sara and i went to the movies with marissa, cynthia , cyndi, then gurske, n all the came with us too it was fun except for when we got outta the movie i decided to act like a total chicken shit and sort of ignored this guy that i like eh figures right i just assumed that i would catch him online before i left to make plans to hang out or something ... that didnt happen and im leaving tomorrow which is totally crappy ....... |
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